theDaysPlodAlong...andTheSinkingTruth...andWhatMakesMeHappy...

it's been an interesting week...full of different emotions...the days leading up to friday was filled of both anticipation, joy and sadness...when you know that something wasn't going to work out...you still can't help but think that it will go your way...then the moment comes when you hear what you dread...my heart sank...it sank deeper and harder than i thought that it would...then a realised something that i had been trying to protect myself from...you realised that youve fallen...i decided to not let it affect me...i spent the night with my brother...someone who has been in a different place in a different land for the past 10 years...it's good to get re-acquainted with him...our brother-sister relationship in the past 10 yrs was through phone calls, webcams and holidays...so it's awesome to have him back in Sydney...i'm actually looking forward to spending time with him...he's going to teach me photography...i'm actually glad that i invited him to my birthday dinner on friday...it was a chance to go out and interact in an environment that we have not previously been in...and he got to meet the three lovely ladies that i love being in Sydney with...the first is serena...she's been an awesome friend...dare i say Best Friend...she's been i guess...a rock that gets squeezed a little too much...hee hee...she knows what i mean...if this rock had ears...they would have fallen off already...but hey...if they did i'd just glue them back on again...she is a tireless friend whom by luck was an 'accidental friend'...i borrowed her...but never returned her...the hot topic i like to bore her ears out with is 'boys'...but i'm hoping for her sake...this lastest boy saga will be the last...the second is jodie...i admire her...i think she is a strong, independent, smart young lady, i think that we share the same thought processes...but with a maturity level 10 times higher than mine...i think that's funny cause it makes me realise i'm slightly immature...this is something that both james and i agree upon...with james having a maturity level 5 times lower than mine...serena and jodie is what forms my comfort circle of women...i don't know how to put it...but yea....i'm not a partcular girly girl...and i don't think i would be comfortable with hanging out with girly girls...so i find that we aren't your typical bunch of girly girls...and i think that's what makes my girl circle different...i've never had a girl circle to be honest...and i can't believe that i've never had one...i guess the perfect mix had never come along until now...but all in all...i'm glad that i have finally found mine...the other chicky babe...who i think is hilariously funny and cute...is Vicki...i think she's a little bundle of fun...i think in some ways she's a younger version of me...i think that is why i have a fondness of her...she's also become a great lunch partner...i finally got to treat her to lunch... =) ...now back to my birthday dinner...i had a great night...with a few less people that i would have loved to have been there...but all in all i had heaps of fun...the staff were AWESOME...and the cocktails were delicious...i would definately go back...even if it was just for the cocktails...the food was nice...though to be honest i prefered the entrees than the mains...on arriving the barman gave me a complimentary tequila shot...it was pretty nice to be honest...and then after the barman learnt that i am a scotch drinker...he made me a scotch cocktail thingy...it was really tasty...i decided to end the night with going home...but it was an excellent night though...so i was happy with how it turned out...not bad for my first birthday dinner experience...i think i will do it again next year...well...i fell asleep on the couch like i usually do...and was surprised to receive an sms at 2.30am...from you know who...it was kinda nice that i got an sms from him...particularly as it was at 2.30 in the morning...something that you least expect...though i think he kinda knows that i was disappointed/upset that he couldn't come to my birthday dinner...and he was trying to make up for it...to be honest i was upset that he didn't say he would make it up to me on thursday when i asked him he was coming...so...to have him say that on saturday morning...was sweet...it was something that i wanted to hear...even though it came 2 days later...my reply the next morning was probably not that inviting...and just reinforced the fact that i was upset...and perhaps a personal dig at him...cause he always says "maybe"...so i guess you can guess what i replied to him...but spending that day with serena and jodie...was awesome...i just love their company...even though we didn't do much...watch teen flicks and ate pizza...it was just perfect...i don't need much to be happy...a quick sms...chit chat...a good laugh...good company...always puts a smile on my face... =)