someonesGettingOlder...

So...my birthday is coming up in 5 days...what do i want for my birthday???...good question...what do i want for my birthday???...i've always really gotten what i wanted...and if i didn't get something i'd always just go out and get it myself...i guess at this stage of my life...turning not a BIG...but moderate 27 years of age...i'm kind of looking forward to turning 30 to be honest...however...turning 30 in 3 years time with nothing to show for it...only rent, debt, a job and a car my dad bought me...perhaps i can turn things around in the next 3 years...get my butt into gear and make something more out of this life...however i think that i have come a long way...i guess i'm not one for the big materialistic things in life...sure it's great to own a house, a dog, a husband (hahaha...whenever that will happen)...but i'm just happy with the things i have...and just happy going about life i guess...the house will come one day...but i know it won't be anytime soon...maybe i'll just find a guy that already has a house...but nah...just being able to enjoy life is what's important...and being able to share it with someone...I've got too much clutter surrounding me anyway...more things to clutter and store away...getting presents is fun i guess...because it shows that someone has taken the time to choose something that reminds them of you...you know you've found "IT"...when you see something and the first thing that you think of is that person...I like giving gifts to people...even if it's not their birthday...it just shows that i've been thinking about them...i guess for my birthday...what i really want is to be happy...and to be happy around the people that means the most to me...family and friends...being able to laugh and be happy and smile...i guess they are the three things that i feel when i am surrounded by those that fill in the void...what i secrectly (it's really not a secret though) really really want for my birthday...i don't even know if i have...or will have...but it's not mine to take...it has to be given...and it can only be given by one person...i feel at this stage...i may have only just taken the ribbon off the box...but i'm still yet to unwrap it...it may sit there...for ages...still unwrapped...waiting...and it would kinda pain me to see it everyday...not able to touch it and see whats inside...but i reckon...i'll be able to unwrap the box and see what's inside...it just may not be on my birthday...