tooMuchContemplating...

sometimes i sit and i think too much...when i think too much i always have all sorts of thoughts run through my mind...sometimes they are good sometimes they are bad...you get paranoid and your mind wanders...you always start off with an innocent warm thought...and then those thoughts start to change and then you think too much...and then you start to wander if what you were thinking was right...maybe it isn't really like that...maybe it's all a lie...maybe he's lying to you...sometimes you shouldn't think too much and just enjoy the moment...but sometimes you can't help but wonder especially when you feel as though you don't know the whole truth...what do you do???...jsut trust in the person that what they are saying is the truth???...sometimes you get caught up in the lie that finally when it gets revealed you can't believe it or you refuse to believe it...i always get paranoid about things...i guess it's just human nature...sometimes when something seems so good...there has to be something thats not right...wouldn't it be a wonderful world to live without paranoia???...just be blissfully happy with life and the people that are in it...to know everything...but how much can you trully know???...just trust in the person...trust in life...too much contemplating will do your head in...though sometimes paranoia may serve as a reality check...perhaps the paranoia that you are feeling is there because there is something wrong...you will never know until truth hits you over the head with a great big mallet...then you'll be like..."well there you go...should have listened to paranoia when paranoia was waving that big sign in front of your eyes"...if only we could know everything...