personalDilemmas

GOING through some stuff at the moment... been seeing someone for 4 months... i don't refer to him as my boyfriend... the situation is a bit complicated... i refer to him as "The guy i'm seeing"... he's going through some personal issues of his own... this guy is great though... i really like him a lot... this is the kinda guy i've been waiting for... if circumstances weren't as they are at the moment... the trials and tribulations of my life has prepared me for this moment in time... i'm not the same person i used to be... i'm not the same person i used to be in my relationships... i believe that i have grown stronger with more willpower and a voice of my own... it still doesn't prepare you for the sudden shocks and pangs of hurt that comes hurtling towards you... which i had to feel in the last week... though... it's all inevitable... and also at the same time kinda a good thing that's happening... as things will become settled... what will come out of it... i don't know... but i do hope that my time with him has not come to an end... it's hard to be there for someone... when at the same time you can't... need some space to sort things out... i can't do the whole space thing... it drives me nuts... too much time for thoughts makes me think too much... i need to get out and be with friends to take my mind off these thoughts... i have to say i'm coping quite well...i think...good to have a good pair of girly friends to keep me company... i can't wait though to see him... i'm beginning to miss him quite a bit... he makes me happy... he makes me laugh... i enjoy our conversations... i like it how he huggles me when we jump into bed at night to keep warm before falling asleep... i like it how he puts his arms around me when i fall asleep on his lap... i miss him...